*sigh*

Well today was a good day, yay! I gotta keep having more of those. It seems like school went by really fast, so I was home with Brookie in no time. She was actually in a good mood today! When I got home I fed her right away, and she promptly fell asleep and slept for 2 hours, which gave me time to get some things done. When she woke up, we played for a while. Then I fed her, gave her some more apples, then fed her again. She liked the apples a little better, she still makes the yucky face, but she will open her mouth for the spoon, and she does smile when I make airplane noises (not when daddy does it though he he he). Before she went to bed we gave her a bath, so now she smells o so clean! And she looked really cute today in her new pink overalls, hehehe!

Well I was just thinking how much my priorities have changed. In high school, I wanted to be a translator. In college, or the beginning of college, I wanted to work for the United Nations, become an ambassador or some other lucrative job. Now, I could care less about those things. I used to think a lucrative job makes someone important, because they can make a difference in the world through those jobs. That is still true, but now I know, even though I won't have a lucrative job, I will be making a difference. I will make a difference in a little girl's life who loves me very much, just by being there and loving her back. Being a mother is the most important job anyone could ever have, more important than any ambassador job, etc. It feels really good to know that everytime I hug my daughter, or make her laugh, or take care of her, I am making a difference in this world.

I still want a nice job, of course. But now, I want to be an advocate for breastfeeding. Someone recently called me a "breastfeeding nazi", which I found horrendously insulting, and I told her so. If she thought I was too passionate with breastfeeding, she could have found another term to relate it to than with a group of people who practiced genocide. Anways, I don't think of it like that. I never think anything bad about women who don't breastfeed. I just believe that women should at least try. If they try and can't for various reasons, then by all means, formula feed. But women should at least try. If that makes me a "breastfeeding nazi", then so be it.

I was thinking I could be a lobbyist or something for a breastfeeding group, like La Leche League, but I haven't found any information at all on what the current policy is and such and if they are even active in the political area. Oh well, I'll have to look some more.

Well, I just realized this entry is kind of all over the place, and I realize its because I am running off of no sleep. I better get to bed.

bye!