*sigh*

Well today was a good day, yay! I gotta keep having more of those. It seems like school went by really fast, so I was home with Brookie in no time. She was actually in a good mood today! When I got home I fed her right away, and she promptly fell asleep and slept for 2 hours, which gave me time to get some things done. When she woke up, we played for a while. Then I fed her, gave her some more apples, then fed her again. She liked the apples a little better, she still makes the yucky face, but she will open her mouth for the spoon, and she does smile when I make airplane noises (not when daddy does it though he he he). Before she went to bed we gave her a bath, so now she smells o so clean! And she looked really cute today in her new pink overalls, hehehe!

Well I was just thinking how much my priorities have changed. In high school, I wanted to be a translator. In college, or the beginning of college, I wanted to work for the United Nations, become an ambassador or some other lucrative job. Now, I could care less about those things. I used to think a lucrative job makes someone important, because they can make a difference in the world through those jobs. That is still true, but now I know, even though I won't have a lucrative job, I will be making a difference. I will make a difference in a little girl's life who loves me very much, just by being there and loving her back. Being a mother is the most important job anyone could ever have, more important than any ambassador job, etc. It feels really good to know that everytime I hug my daughter, or make her laugh, or take care of her, I am making a difference in this world.

I still want a nice job, of course. But now, I want to be an advocate for breastfeeding. Someone recently called me a "breastfeeding nazi", which I found horrendously insulting, and I told her so. If she thought I was too passionate with breastfeeding, she could have found another term to relate it to than with a group of people who practiced genocide. Anways, I don't think of it like that. I never think anything bad about women who don't breastfeed. I just believe that women should at least try. If they try and can't for various reasons, then by all means, formula feed. But women should at least try. If that makes me a "breastfeeding nazi", then so be it.

I was thinking I could be a lobbyist or something for a breastfeeding group, like La Leche League, but I haven't found any information at all on what the current policy is and such and if they are even active in the political area. Oh well, I'll have to look some more.

Well, I just realized this entry is kind of all over the place, and I realize its because I am running off of no sleep. I better get to bed.

bye!

Yay for apples

Today was pretty fun, but draining. Brooke is going through the worst growth spurt yet, my body just can't keep up! She wants to eat every half hour, for hour long feedings! I ended up giving her some mashed apples, and although she did make the same yucky face, she liked it better than bananas. I might try again with the apples tomorrow.

Tomorrow I go back to school :o(. I can't wait until summer vaca, when I can stay home most of the day with Brooke! Today we also got a lot of unpacking done, but did none of the errands we had planned on doing, due to Brooke's demanding feeding schedule. She was so cute today, though! She was very talkative and rolling around everywhere!

Well, gotta get to bed. Bye!

Yucky Bananas!

Today was a good day. I got to hang out with Brooke all day, we had so much fun! We went out and bought her high chair, yay! I decided to give the bananas one more whirl, and this time I took pics. You can def tell she doesn't like them!

She looks so lost in her high chair, so small! I also think she is teething, because she has been really grumpy, she drools a lot, and she wants to gum everything! She's also having a growth spurt, and is feeding constantly. She's getting so big!

Well, gotta do some unpacking. bye!

I'm soooo sick

OMG I am sooo sick! I have mastistitis again, only this time its worse than before. I've spent all day in bed, but I still feel like crap, and it's starting to piss me off!

Thank god DH stayed home today to take care of Brooke so I could rest. He also made me my meals in bed and basically treated me like a queen. What a man!

Today we gave Brooke her first solid food! I mashed up some banana and mixed it with breastmilk and tried to give it to her. At first, she wouldn't even open her mouth, but then she tasted it and made the cutest YUCK face I've ever seen! So, she doesn't like banana maybe? Tomorrow I'm going to pick up some avocado, and if she reacts the same way, then I will give it a rest. Perhaps she is just not ready.

Time to go pass out.

bye

i can do it!

Well i was writing a paper for class but I though I would take a little break and just write a few words.  I took some pics of Brooke today in her jumparoo, which she loves. She is so cute!

Brooke was very cranky today. She's having a growth spurt, so she keeps wanting to eat, but then she just cries at the breast.  She acts like it hurts to eat or something. Maybe she's teething? I don't know, it was so weird. I finally got her to calm down by singing "the ants go marching" to her...she loves that song, and it always works to calm her down.

I'm all excited cause tomorrow is Friday and that means no class for the weekend, and I get to spend some time with Brooke! I tried to find somewhere that has mommy and me yoga today but got no luck. Hopefully I'll find one when I join LLL or the Mommy Group next thursday. I'm so nervous, what if the other mother's don't like me? Ahhhh!

Speaking of mothers, today my mom got me a card that basically encouraged me to stay in school. Everyone is right, I can do it! I AM SUPERMOM, HEAR ME ROAR!

I was supposed to get my wedding cake today, but the lady never showed up. Figures.

Well i guess that's all for today. Back to my paper.

wonderful day

Well today when I got home from class I just had an absolute ball with Brooke.  She's right in the middle of a growth spurt, so she's been cranky the past couple of days.  But she was smiling today, and I even got her to laugh by blowing raspberries on her belly! She was so cute!

Feeding her today helped me really to relax and de-stress.  Tomorrow I plan on starting her on solid foods for the first time, so I know that I have to cherish the last total bf day that we will ever have.  It makes me so sad, but so proud that she is growing up so healthy.

As I was giving her her last feeding of the night, she looked up at me right before she fell asleep and gave me the sweetest smile, complete with a milk mustache.  She just melts my heart.

Well that's all for now.

 

omg

O my God, its 1:45 am and I just finished my paper. I wouldn't even say finished it, it is horrible.  So I had to spend all night working on a horrible paper instead of playing with my daughter like I wanted to.

Sometimes I just feel like throwing in the towel.

Good thing my DH is so stubborn and won't let me quit. I hate him lol.

Off to bed, finally